Last month, I slept in seven rooms comfortably with expectations that I’m about to experience something new when I wake up. Don’t you just love that feeling of anticipation everytime you travel?
It’s been weeks since I arrived home from my trip. I am trying my very best to catch up with the backlogs and I guess I am slowly but surely putting these experiences into words. I am very thankful with every opportunity that comes my way and I love that feeling of independence.
Right now, I am blogging from my room, seated at the bed and I kind of dislike the fact that I am thinking too much about various stuff. First, my sleeping pattern is ruined again. I tried to sleep a few hours ago, but I woke up when the electric fan started to make unnecessary noise. I can imagine it yelling the words “Fix me!” to me as I stare at it. I think this electric fan is the most loyal yet the most abused thing here in my room. I use it everyday yet I rarely clean it.
I am having some weird dreams lately. I can still remember each segment clearly, but I don’t want to reveal them all here. Last week, it was in a beach setting. The next dream involves me running in a corridor that looked like I am trying to runaway from the corporate set-up. I woke up catching my breath. Ate Lenny apparently woke me up to eat lunch with my grandparents. The other night, it involved me eating popcorn while seated in a comfy couch while staring at a big screen – not sure if it is a giant monitor or a TV screen.
I tried to search for the interpretation of my dreams, and they turned out to be positive in terms of my growth as a person. It s true that I have so many ambitions and goals in my life right now and I am trying to put them in order. I want to succeed in every aspect of my life and I know that I should also put the business and financial aspect into consideration. Anyway, I’m turning twenty five soon and I also need to think about stability.
Sometimes, I get a bit worried and pressured when I am in big gatherings involving some people who are truly close to me (family and friends). Some people have this impression that I am ‘not taking life seriously’ when in fact, I do. I really do. I may not be in the traditional set-up now, but I am not a bum either. I admit that I may slack at times, but when I am at the peak of my productivity, I make sure that I deliver results. I am also thinking about the future, but I have my own way of dealing with it. You may not see the best results now, but with patience and hardwork, I know that I can make this thing work. I know what I want and what I truly need.
I talked to a friend awhile ago. He is relatable since we have the same goals and same dilemma. I told him that I am really used to doing things by myself and not completely depending on anyone. I also miss working in groups or tandems, but I am left with no choice now. Trying to produce a good input alone can be tiring and it might even lead to sudden stress. Not talking to a ‘real’ person face to face can also make one feel uninspired.
It’s 5:30 in the morning and I bet some of my friends are about to wake up to prepare for Monday work in the corporate world. I just realized that my room is a mess, my window is too covered (may blinds na, may curtain pa!), my planner is full of To-Do list that should have been done last week and I am craving for a breakfast meal from Tapa King. Too bad the nearby branch is still closed. Pft.
So there. I only need to let that out. Maybe I am overthinking up to the point that it haunts me when I try to sleep.
Can’t wait to go to the beach.
I wish I had that peak of productivity, iba kasi nagagawa ko. =))
And hey, since you’re birthday is starting to come, electric fan reregalo ko sayo =))
I can’t wait to go to the beach too. Backlogs galore. hehe
where’s justice? you are uninspired and yet you write pretty awesome. 🙂
i always long for the beach and can’t wait for the day to set my foot on the salty shores again.
have a nice week ahead mica 🙂
@Ada – Haha ikaw kasi kung anu-ano ginagawa mo =) )
Electric Fan? Sige. Gawin mong stand fan ha! 😛
@Photoblogger – Ang lapit mo sa beach, Van! 😀 See you within the month!
@Lawstude – Hehe thanks Oman 😀 Let’s go on an out of town trip soon with Dom etc. Have a nice week din 😀
Nyahaha! Welcome to the dark side Mica! Over thinking is one bitch of a hobby 😀
@Drew – IKR 😛 Thinking is healthy though. Overthinking is just too much =))
grabe talaga ang pagiging cerebral mo—-sabagay,ganyan talaga ang mga writers.kaya naman at least me sense ang mga sinusulat mo di tulad sakin kung anu nalang walang wentang kwento.nyahaha
Buti naman at hindi multo ang nag ingay… May ganun talaga Stand fan or electric fan na pasaway..