An uninspired blogger is pushing herself to write random thoughts to bring her blog groove back. There’s a dozen of pending posts at the draft section and all she does is write a short introduction, think of an awesome title and clicks the draft button. Nice. I wonder when she’ll ever publish those posts.
See, this uninspired blogger is turning twenty four years old. She’s been lazy, unproductive and sad the past few days and the bad thing there is she can’t really figure out why she feels that way. Is it because she’s still in-denial that she’s once again away from her family? Is it because of the sudden twist of events that made her face the bittersweet taste of reality? Is it because of the hot weather? Is it because she’s making too much excuses right now and she’s being unreasonable?
All the uninspired blogger wants right now is to be happy. She knows that happiness is a choice, but she simply feels empty right now. She wants to go out and wander, but she can’t do that for now. She wants to do a lot of things, but she can’t sort out what should be her priority. She can’t even start a decent resume because she’s not sure if she wants to go corporate again. She wants to pursue film, but she needs to accept the reality about filmmakers.
For now, she will take things slow. She knows that she’ll be ready by next month. Just last Friday, she met up with a friend whom she haven’t seen for years. It was a productive reunion and she’s glad that she was able to talk to someone who shares the same vision as hers. It felt a bit weird but exciting at the same time.
She’s not even sure on what she wants to do for her birthday. It will fall on a Friday, Rebecca Black’s day. All she hopes for now is that well-wishers will give her the inspiration to be back on track again…
Maybe giving her a plane ticket to Boracay with pocket money and funds for her next short film will do.
Or maybe… just maybe… Â I dunno. I’m just uninspired narrating the thoughts of an uninspired blogger.
I/She needs to sleep. *runzzzzz*
NOTE: I’m just sad. Forgive me.