Last week was a pretty tough week for me. No, I didn’t have any direct problems nor caused one. There are just some things in life that you cannot really control. Life is not a computer program where you can debug when you encounter some errors. It is not a full-length movie where you can edit out some parts that you find dragging. Life is a gift that we are lucky to have, no matter how happy or down we are feeling at the moment.
I’ve been pushing myself to write a decent blog post or a short screenplay for that matter. I end up trying to figure out what I should be blogging about. I am eager to blog about my UK Trip, but recent events made me temporarily loose that happy momentum. It will be back one day. I just don’t need to force it. I also found some of my unfinished screenplays and I’m thinking of rewriting one that I started three years ago. The story is quite applicable to what is happening around me now. I can impart more justice to my main character.
Last year, I go out of town at least twice or thrice a month. I also go out every week to meet up with friends or attend in some events. I’ve been back in Manila for almost a month now, but I haven’t really traveled for leisure and I rarely go out even just for coffee. We all have priorities in our lives and I guess I am in the point now wherein I need to sacrifices some of my wants in order for me to fulfill the needs of the people I love. Yes, we have a choice. It is my choice to be where I am right now and I don’t regret it (although I must admit that it can be frustrating at times).
The tragic ending of a close friend’s life really made me devastated. Going back home not seeing his usual happy self made me really sad. Seeing the people who truly loved and cared for him made me feel sad because we wouldn’t be able with him again physically. I am also happy because at least it is proven that he is such a great man with the number of people who really went back to my hometown just to visit him and bid temporary goodbye. I am still thankful because of the good memories he bestowed to us. We will never forget Stephen.
Another lesson I’ve learned is that it is OK to be emotional at times. It is okay to grief as long as you learn to accept things, let go and move on. It is not easy to forget the past, but dwelling too much on it won’t help either. Letting go and moving forward is the best thing to do.
Also, Money is NOT everything. Having a Job is NOT everything. I think some people are too blinded and too preoccupied with getting rich that they tend to forget that they have their parents and siblings to look after too. I am open to trying my luck in other countries, but that can wait. There are some things that money cannot ever buy – time and memories. I am glad that I realized that early on.
Hmmmm… what else? Well, I read some of the entries I wrote when I was still based in the UK. I miss being a daughter to my mom and being a sister to my brother. I also miss the feeling of being in love.
I love taking Sunset pictures. Looking at these shots no matter how beautiful or blurry the photo is never fails to give me that ‘longing’ feeling. Whew.
I can’t wait to bring my blog groove back. I am also craving for Fish & Chips now.
And I should sleep because it’s almost 4am.
EmoMyx signing off.. Toink!