On my so-called secret blog, I wrote an entry about the heartaches the month of November gave me on the first week. Let’s just say that things didn’t go my way. Expectations and goals were not met. I even ranted that November has always been a bad month for me.
But I was wrong.
This month is about to end, but before I say hello to December, I would like to share some of my realizations made in the past few weeks….
Work Hard to Reap Rewards – I am happy and proud to say that me and my friends were able to come up with something fruitful on our part. We’re like farmers who kept on planting on our free time and we are expecting to reap the fruits of our labor later on. I am fulfilled because I was able to reach my goals. I would like to thank my friend who kept on giving me tasks and assignments to do. Though I am really lazy at times, he gave me the right dose of determination by telling me to focus on what I want to have by the end of the year and it helped. 😛 I am very proud of my friends and myself for coming up with a very good project.
It’s good to have online friends, but see to it that you also interact with ‘real people’ – I chat with my friends thru ym or gtalk all the time – At work, at home, at a coffee shop etc. Just this month, I was able to hangout with some blogger friends whom I never really had the chance to bond with in the past, reconnected with my high school buddies, met up with some old friends and so on. Honestly, I often whine about how bored i am with my life when i’m here at home. I have no one to talk to so i end up buzzing everyone on my ym list. The loneliness gets into me all the time. There’s no harm in inviting a random friend to go out for a cup of coffee.
Spend Wisely – I’ve been broke on the third week because of many delays in payment. I also spent majority of my salary to buy airfare tickets for next year instead of buying some food at the grocery. It feels so damn bad whenever I can’t see enough money on my wallet, but there’s no one to blame but myself. Two days ago, I went to the grocery to purchase some stuff that will keep me steady for a week. No takeouts or expensive foodies for now. Ayokong mamatay sa gutom kahit na ako’y isang certified Patay Gutom LOL
Talk To Your Momma– I had an argument with my mom a few weeks ago. I was not in the mood to listen to her ‘sermons’ so i ended up telling her that I’m annoyed, she got mad at me and cried. I decided to go offline and sleep. I later on realized that I should not have done that. Yes, I am also tired from work and part-time writing gigs, but she’s working like a carabao in a foreign country just to support my brother’s special needs. I shouldn’t have listened to her and just say yes to everything she says. I feel sorry because I felt bad that night due to an argument with someone. I failed to realize that all she really wants is to see me in the webcam and hear my voice. I ended up initiating another web conference with her three days after and we talked about a lot of things about work and yeah, Carlo kept on saying ‘Finish’, which means he wants to end the conversation and sleep 😛
Be Thankful That You’re Busy – Maybe some of the corporate slaves a.k.a. makabagong bayani ng samahan ng mga manggagawang Pilipino will argue with me. Nah, of course I don’t want to feel stressed at my work, but we have to be thankful that we spend at least 8 hours of our time at the office and get paid. With the present condition of our economy, swerte na talaga ang mga may trabaho. We have to value our jobs no matter how redundant that sounds like.
Unleash Your Creative Side – Last Tuesday, I attended the Eksena! Event at Tomato Bomb. My mentor from Sinelab Community Mike Dagnalan invited me to the event wherein they showcased some of the short films made by Sinelab graduates and other indie filmmakers. There’s poetry reading, singing, dancing and many, many more! I even saw Diether Ocampo and his girlfriend there. After the said event, my passion for filmmaking went back. Did i tell you that i used to write a lot of poems and short stories when I was in high school? But meh, I really want to make it big at the independent filmmaking scene as a scriptwriter than a director or actress. I am determined to make things happen by next year. I will.
If you ain’t got no money, bring your broke a$$ home – Familiar? Got that line from Fergie’s Glamorous. Ok, I’m not really broke right now, but I’m thinking of going back to Dagupan this weekend. Why? Nothing really important. I would like to see how my grandparents are and i heard that there’s a big ‘change’ in the place where i used to stay. Some of my friends there also told me that they would love to see me again and errr…. i believe them. Hmmmm…. and i miss pigar-pigar. Before going to sleep last night, I imagined myself riding the bus and going back home. I giggled like an elementary student under the sheets. Geez. Excited much, homie?! 😛
Learn to Accept Change – Change is a strong word. I think I mentioned that a lot of times here at my blog, but yeah. We have to deal with change. You have to keep in mind that expectations might disappoint you because of certain changes that will occur in our lives that you can’t control. Life is not like a computer program that you can control once you put the right codes into it. Just like as what my friend Hannah mentioned in her tweets the past few days, Good things come to an end. Don’t fret. I mean, yeah, just fret all you want while it’s fresh. You have to move on because better things are in-stored for you.
Appreciate the people who loves you – I would like to take this opportunity to thank some of my friends who understood me all throughout especially those who took the time to read some of my literary pieces (naks hahaha). The fact that you spent minutes to read and at the same time critic my works made me really smile. There is also this someone who pushed me to just be happy and learn to appreciate the beauty of life by smiling and avoiding negative thoughts. A number of individuals also showed their support to some of my plans for next year. Another friend told me not to change for the sake of pleasing someone. If you can’t accept me for who i am, then it’s not my problem anymore. Sometimes, we tend to build blocks in our lives just to see on who is willing to break them. Thank you, wall breakers.Â I am happy to have you all.
BeingÂ Single is a Blessing – Single is sexy. Single is hot. Single is blah blah blah. Don’t feel sorry for yourself if you don’t have a certain special someone in your life.Truly, being Single is a Blessing especially for goal-driven individuals like me. I had the chance to talk to an old friend who used to dream a lot when we were younger. She ended up with a strict boyfriend and she can’t even go out alone. I don’t think that kind of scenario is for me especially now. Ask me again next year after my birthday, ok? LOL. I want a man in my life, but I don’t really need it.
Talking to a Childhood Friend Helps – Lately, I have this habit of talking to a good friend from my elementary days. He told me that he thought i’d end up as a newscaster or performer. He reminded me that I used to boast about our big cooler at home LOL. He reminded me that I have this Yellow Ranger costume way back and everybody in our classroom wore it (including the boys haha). He told me a lot of revelations about himself and about his thoughts about my father, whom he used to see everyday at our school. Listening to another person’s viewpoint helps you notice a lot of things that you don’t usually see – or you don’t want to see.
So that is Bittersweet November for me. Now, I am ready to welcome December with a bang! Weeeeee 😀
**** Special thanks to LX3Daily for the wonderful emo-slash-chocolate-y pics 😀