In a Clean but Lost State

Last night, i wrote a draft entry about my Birmingham-Dubai-Manila flight via Emirates Airlines. The whole flight, which lasted for approximately 18 hours is a tiring one. I am happy though because I saw my Nyok friends waiting for me at the airport. O yes, I was in the same flight where Spongecola and Pupil band were and some of the OFWs who were rescued from Libya.

Do you know where you're going to?

I won’t be publishing that one for now, but i will on my other blog. I simply want to express the things that are bothering me as I step back to the country.

After three months, i am again lying in my bed – i have one electric fan, two green pillows and a regular bed sheet. I am back to wearing shorts and not pajamas. I don’t wear socks anymore and i don’t need any heater to keep the whole room warm. I am seriously back in my own room. The thought of being back is good, but i rather feel empty.

It is funny though that for the first time, I can attest how a ‘jetlag’ feels like. At one time, i ended up talking in straight english twice while sleeping and Ada thought i am trying to push her away LOL. When I woke up that morning and had breakfast with my grandparents, i am no longer drinking hot tea. Hello again to my Nescafe 3 in 1. Its taste is quite a stranger to me now.

I am using my grandfather’s laptop as i blog right now. I had to borrow it because my laptop has OS problems. I’m planning to have it fixed in order to save my old files and the truth is i am thinking of buying a new one. A MacBook Pro will be a good choice. In fact, i think that is the best gadget for me especially if i want to learn more about editing. But do i really need to buy something that expensive if i can also get similar satisfaction when i’m purchasing a cheaper brand with almost the same specs?

Job Hunting is Haunting me. I am currently ok with my accumulated blog earnings and i still write for the tabloid where i used to be a part of the Editorial team. My grandparents talked to me and asked me about my plans. I seriously want to move to Cebu and try my luck there. I found some good career opportunities there, and i really want to stay there too even just for a few months. Trying my luck abroad is also a good option. Just like what my cousin told me in one of our chats in London, i am going back to the Philippines in a clean state. She said to give myself some time to think and re-access, look for the best opportunity before i work again. I feel so lost in this part. Freelancing will give me the time to travel still, but with the current situation i am in, getting a stable job will keep me secured.

Last December, i made a list of places i want to go to. It covers March – May. I even co-organized a trip to Apo Reef- Puerto Galera with some travel friends that is scheduled next week, but i’m afraid i need to back out. Two more planned trips will be cancelled because of the current situation i am in. I will not divulge much information because it has something to do with my family. It’s quite amusing to think that last year, I didn’t care much about other people. I go to trips in an instant. I don’t even give a damn if the ticket prices are high or if i need to spend more on a certain trip. I love traveling, but i also noticed that because of too much traveling, i maybe creating a big gap between me and the people who matters to me the most. I won’t stop traveling and that’s for sure. Maybe i just need to face my reality by not escaping to the beach. I won’t be a hypocrite though that i am upset that some of my travel plans won’t push through.

Whenever i hear Rihanna’s songs, i instantly miss my life in England. It feels great to be with your mom and brother. I will blog about it soon. I am eager to tell more stories about my England adventures. Maybe i will soon. I will not set a deadline on this one. I have so many stories to tell!

I am happy that my friends are there for me. For the past days, i had afternoon dates with my girl friends. I do really miss going out with them in groups. I only have few close friends, but i know that i can rely on them anytime.

Right now, i am planning to concentrate more on my travel blog. I might start job hunting soon, but i will be ready when i know i am ready. I can do freelance online works and i am hoping to get more opportunities. I think this is also the time wherein i really need to focus more on improving myself (left all of my clothes in England 😐 ) and yes, making more money. Love can wait.


15 thoughts on “In a Clean but Lost State

  1. Ada

    Una kong napansin yung category: EMO. Hehe!

    Things happen for a reason. I’m supposed to go the biglaan Sagada trip but tingnan mo nangyari, bigla akong nagkalagnat hehe. Relocating to Cebu is a great idea, why not? Baka dun ka bumongga πŸ™‚ Go go badet. Tsaka hindi ka nagiisa, job less din ako noh. πŸ˜†

  2. Eudora

    Mica dear, I do hope you’ll find what you’ve been searching for in life soon, nothing’s impossible for a talented person like you…where there’s a will, there’s a way, all the best! *hugs*

  3. Micamyx Post author

    @Ada – Thanks Badet. Yun na lang din ang iniiisip ko ngayon. I will go to Cebu talaga and stay there kahit for a few weeks muna to try the ‘Cebuano Lifestyle’. Kapag nagustuhan ko, might as well embark a career there bago mag-fly to Europe ulit hehe πŸ˜€ Oi, technically di ka pa jobless noh! πŸ˜›

    @Pinoy Adventurista – Salamat po πŸ˜€

    @Eurdora – Thank you so much, Eudora! I hope so too…

    @Lloyed – YEY!

    @Hannah – True that 😐

  4. Ed

    this is the year to think. it’s good kasi you aren’t as busy as before mica. Take time, focus and conquer! πŸ˜€

  5. Micamyx Post author

    @Ed – Thanks Ed πŸ™‚ Nakakapagod din ang sobrang free time haha may gusto ka gawin pero di mo magawa because of certain circumstances yay. See you soon! πŸ˜€

    @Nonoy – Thanks for dropping by Nonoy πŸ˜€

  6. Bryan Amparo

    Thanks for the comment on my blog πŸ™‚ Anyway, it’s my turn to return the favor.

    Sa totoo lang, di ko alam kung paano kayo nabubuhay sa pagba-blog. 😐 Pero one thing’s for sure, pagdating sa pera, kailangan mo ng stable na mapapagkunan nito. Maswerte rin kung ang makukuha mong trabaho, gusto mo at nag-eenjoy ka.

    Pero ang ending nito, saan ka masaya? Go lang ng go sa mga bagay na makakapagpasaya sa’yo (basta hindi bawal). Pero to balance it, kailangan you also look ahead to the future, have a plan, and execute it.

  7. philipinoy

    Hi, Mica…. welcome home!
    Hey, for a newbie like me…. I’m just curious LOL. Can you give me idea of earnings in blogging? I’m not in a rush you know…. Just curious. Right now I just enjoy looking at my Feedjit Traffic Feed. Maybe earnings would be a bonus for me. But who knows…
    Thanks and I sincerely hope that everything turns out alright with all your plans.

    P.S. Excited to hear all your stories about your stay in London.

  8. Karen

    Been reading your blog for quite a while now. πŸ™‚

    Don’t worry about job hunting. Just start assessing things, and discover what you’re passionate about. When you love what you’re doing, money won’t be a problem. HAHA. Nagfi-feeling lang. Wala pa din naman akong trabaho e. πŸ™‚

    Good luck, Ms Mica!

  9. Jakey Junkie The Bunny

    Best of wishes with your adventures in life, my friend.

    Medyo nagkataon, pero parang pareho tayo ng plano na mag-reset ng buhay. Sa Davao ko naman napiling mag-settle down. Masyado na akong congested dito sa Empire of Manila. Mukhang medyo suswertehin yata ako sa Davao. Sana maging okay ‘di ba?

  10. Micamyx Post author

    @Bryan – Maraming salamat πŸ˜€ Sa mga ads (Adsense, Nuffnang etc) usually kumikita ang mga bloggers. Depending on your online earnings has its pros and cons, although balance talaga is the key to everything. I’m trying to do that now, although i think my efforts are not enough. Kaya ko ‘to πŸ˜€

    @Philipinoy – Hello again πŸ™‚ To be honest, i think it is better for newbie bloggers to focus more on their content first bago mag-explore on how they can earn from it para yung passion sa blogging ay hindi mawawala πŸ™‚ Through my advertisements usually kumikita. Try to attend sa iba’t ibang blog events (iblog7 this April! πŸ˜€ ) for you to know more and at the same time meet the people behind the other blogs πŸ˜€

    @Claire – Sana nga, ‘teh! πŸ˜€

    @Karen – Hehehe salamat πŸ˜€ Sa umpisa, money won’t be a problem. When you start to take life seriously, it will be a major problem LOL πŸ˜› Goodluck din sa job hunting hehe πŸ˜›

    @Jake – Sana nga πŸ˜€ Plan ko rin dati Davao, pero wah ewan. I’m glad though that i have friends there na. Sana ma-meet mo rin sila once you go there πŸ˜€


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